I've been so unmotivated lately.

Been at home, lazing the day away, occasionally flipping through my excuse of studying.

What i've realized these days, is that for me to attain something, I must sacrifice another.

I guess what I gave up this time was wasted, since I didn't manage to attain my goal at the end of the day.

Scattered thoughts.

XOXOX

While I feel somewhat sad, I know i'm just over thinking. So I'm not going to say anything else, and let the story unfold. I treasure you too much to let you slide.

I think people should start practicing what they preach, and not just cause it makes them seem virtuous.

Character of a person

People who are good dont keep telling and proclaiming they are good. Sure, actions will tell, but I think if you do something with the purpose, however small, of wanting to know how 'good' or 'charitable' you are, then the purpose is defeated.

For me, at least, it is much more meaningful to do something good and not announce it to the world. Announcing it to the world basically means you want attention and praise for your good deed.

Ever so often, I will come across people like this. People who kepp telling others that they are kind and warm and all lovely on the inside. I trust them, of course, and yes, it shows. But I will then question their motive. Sure, it could mainly be for the reason that they feel it is the good thing to do, but is it to make themselves feel good on the inside or is it really a selfless act?

I dont like people who say one thing and do the other. People who say they are observant and sensitive but whose actions show otherwise. Hypocrites. The sad thing is, they probably know about this trait of theirs, but delude themselves by thinking, 'Yes, I am doing the right thing. So I must be good'.

People who promote themselves constantly, whether you met them for the first or 100th time, are people I call arrogant. Yes,they may seem like they are not, but to at least a small extent, they believe they are better. They may not have the 'I am so much better than you" character when you are with them and they will not, at least not consciously, think of them being better than you. But take heed, it is at the back of their mind. You will realize that when you speak about something that you did or that said, they will probably say, "Yea i did that when i was like 12", or "No, I dont think that is like fantastic or anything", and they will go on about THEMSELVES and you would be there wondering and questioning yourself.

They feel that their actions are a notch higher than the rest, cause they are classier and more elegant, perhaps. I am not talking about people who sincerely want to correct your mistake. I am talking about those who make you feel like you are an ant in the world and whatever you have done are peanuts compared to their world changing life saving thoughts and efforts.

Through these, I understand people much better. I may take your words about your character as true when I first meet you. But as i slowly understand who you really are, I start questioning your actions and deducing your personality. You dont talk about having such philanthropic ideas to seek approval or praise, you do it because you want to, because it helps someone, not your already up-there ego.

For my 200th, I thought I would leave quotes on a subject I feel reveals a person's character

I always felt that the great high privilege, relief and comfort of friendship was that one had to explain nothing.
(Katherine Mansfield)

I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me doesn't consult his calendar.
(Robert Brault)

I've had many friends with whom I've shared my time, but very few with whom I've shared my heart...

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit beside without a word, and walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't say.

Friends bring out the beautiful things in each other that no one else looks hard enough to find.

A good friend sees the first tear, catches the second and stops the third.

To my best friends Sherina, Gwen and Elaine: Love you guys

So I can see more of you now. What's next?

Its been a whirlwind weekend.

Confessions, confrontations, thieves, bitches and bastards.

Really, somehow, I was sucked into everything.Unexpected.

I almost forgave her, but then, her last words to me woke me. "I believe you two have some redeeming qualities"

Many times I question my character. Am I really as good as I think I am? But what I do know is this. I treated her as well as I could. I was ready to lend her my shoulder even though she was mean. I was ready to forgive. Reality has its own way of emerging through the lies. A slippery slope I almost fell.

So this time, I'm certain. The choice is clear. My shoulder is still here, but a sincere apology should be given and meant, not just said.


Then again, with this whole fiasco, I gained a friend I know is true and trustworthy.

The company is fresh and free.
Joyful and comforting
Relaxing yet filled with anticipation of 'what's next?'

2 days and she is one of us. Cause we know what friendship is.
A couple of weeks, a friendship for life is born

I look forward to the days henceforth.
Even with all the drama, I can say, "It was fated, and its worth it".

Top 5 things I hate about School

1. Waking up

2. Walking to the FSC.

It is so hot now and tin alley (a street I have to walk through) has this area whereby it just stinks like hell. I always feel like im at a farm, cleaning cow manure or something.

3. Classes are 1.5hrs long

It may not seem much but RJ classes were like 50mins!

4. Recently, I found out my EAP presentation time limit was 12, not 15mins

I honestly thought the limit was 12 to 15min... So my time was 13min___. :( Crap

5. Exams

Ditto!

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I just learnt the dance to this! yay!

If only I had the same determination to study

Oh, how good would that be...

Here is the one dance version!

Signing off!!

XOXO

Hello again!

Yes, as usual, me blogging means Exams are coming.

As I was working on my EAP presentation last night, my sister was talking about studying business in Commerce.

She said that I will study everything, and I was kinda worried about that. Studying everything means I dont know everything about anything. Kind of like, Jack of all trades master of none?

Well, but I am considering business I guess.

Anyway, I am pretty busy with school. There are assignments due, research to be done and revision sheets to be completed. No, unlike previously, I did not exactly leave these revisions to the last minute. The work just kind of piled up consistently, almost grudgingly.

Since I am bored now (no. School does not exist.), I shall make a list. I think I shall make a list everyday. This is not a completed list.

5 moments of 2011

in no particular order

1. Returning home in September

I know I know! It was such a short holiday! I was not able to meet many people, and because I was so tired, I actually cancelled on some. (EEKS!)

But I am really glad I went home! Not just because I do not have to cook or do the dishes. Well, partly. But more importantly, cause I have built 18 years worth of friendships and I dont want to lose them!

I missed my family too and going home gave me this warm fuzzy feeling. oh. And reuniting with my tiggers.

That's a list topper

2. Purchasing a swimming goggle

HA! I know what you are thinking! WTF is probably going through your mind right now.

But yes, I bought goggles when I was in Mornington. Cause the pool was so bad.

It was salty, chlorine bombed and small.

And it blurred my vision.

So my friends and I had to buy goggles, cause we were not afraid of death and blindness.

We were just interested in swimming.

Well, at least it is a worthwhile investment

3. Going to Trinity

Your mind: WTFUHHH???

I know this is like... stupid but yes. I am really glad I came to Trinity. I met new friends, all from different places. We quarreled, we had fun and we partied. Also, I think Trinity helped my self esteem... in the education way. I never thought I was smart or intellectual. But Trinity kind of gave me that extra push. So I am really glad I came here. Besides, Trinity marks a new start for me. Considering how I screwed my Alevels up, this is not so bad.

4. Christmas and New Year Party.

Party Animal - WORD

5. Meeting my new friends, of course!

There is the ever interesting and weird Jachow

There is the very caring Calbelle

There is the sexy geek Alicia

There is my siaozabor Jane

There is my party babies Alvina, Stacey, Vanessa, Robby, Alditha

But what I am most grateful for is my sister. :)

I love that I know her friends and she knows mine

So parties are much more fun... I mean, we have a greater network of friends.

I gotta go! Accounting assignment!

XOXO

Happy New Year!

So, I had a party yesterday and my friends were asking each other for their New Year's Resolution.

So, Im gonna make a list of things that I feel I should or could accomplish and a few goals here and there.

1. Graduate from Trinity with a good score (oh please)

This isn't really a choice. If I dont, then i should just jump off a building. I am still deciding between commerce and arts. So, I want to get a score that is above 86%, so that I am able to choose the faculty that I want to go to. I am quite torn between the two faculties. Commerce will give me a stable certificate, while arts will lead me to psychology and criminology. I know that combination will lead me nowhere, so I am hoping to use psychology to get into human resource. Well, I guess my end point would still be working for my dad, but I do want to do something that I am happy with, so studying will not be such a chore.

2. More Road trips please! Cairns, Sydney etc!

My friends and I drove to Mornington from the 27th to 30th Dec 2011. It is just a 2 hour journey from where I am. Well, yea, it is not much of a holiday if you think about it, but given the Trinity holiday schedule, I guess we made the most of it. The only thing is I really have to start studying now.

But I do like road trips! So I am looking forward to travelling around Australia during my school holidays. Like, why not?? I am studying in Australia, so domestic flights, or even driving, will be so much cheaper! :D

3. Swimming.

I bought goggles while I was at Mornington. I should utilise it.

4. Spend more time (skype) with my family

I haven't really spent much time skyping to my family, and I feel I really should. I know my parents miss me quite abit, and i do too. But its just the time difference is so different. Usually, I will be too tired and sleep is usually more tempting.

5. Disneyland and Universal Studio!

There is a Universal Studio Singapore! But alas, I am now studying in Melbourne. :(

I love going to Disneyland, Universal Studios and all kinds of theme parks! I love theme parks!

I dont really know why I like it so much.

But I just love the feeling of entering a theme park and all there is to do is run around and have fun! I just love theme parks!!

7. My driving licence

I CANNOT BELIEVE I FAILED MY FIRST ONE. I didnt stop at the stop line. Yupp.

That's why I failed. :(

Long story, but I really wanna get my licence by this year.

It will be retarded if I have to take my final theory test again.

8. Save money

haha. I know what you are thinking. Is that even possible? Well yes.

I have been spending so much here, it is impossible.

I plan to save at least $150 each month

It is impossible for January since there are bills to pay etc.

I will start saving in February and I will make sure I dont have to keep worrying about money

I want to use my own money and buy myself a ton of stuff

Camera

Clothes

Purses

Basically anything and everything

9. Gym membership next year

10. More vegetable. I need to eat more vegetables

11. Cook at home more often

12. Dance classes!

Samba! Salsa! Argentine Tango!

13. Pictures! More pictures!

14. Language classes

I am still thinking about the different languages, but I will take a class in university!

15. I need to do the laundry every week

I know this sounds stupid, but seriously, my sister and I do the laundry once a month, or something like that. And the load that we have to do is like.. wow.

So this year, I will stay clean by doing the laundry every week.

It is summer now, so I cant be donning the same clothes over and over again

hoping I dont smell funny

So yupp, currently, these are my new year's resolution for 2012!

More will definitely be added to this list

But I will keep this list doable, so I will actually act on it

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVERYONE!

I hate it when people choose to take advantage of me.

I use the word choose cause some really have no idea they are doing it and subtle hints usually solves the problem. But then, there comes the complacent bitches/bastards who do it all the time.

These people are usually calculative and full of arrogance. Always thinking they have the best stuff and everyone else is below par and most importantly, below them. Yes, they sometimes have redeeming qualities, for example, you will be forced to spend less since they criticize every damn shit you want to purchase. However, who can stand day long self centered rubbish being thrown at your ears incessantly and without any note of shame?

Even if you think you have the best of everything, it does not mean that you know everything. Imperfect knowledge you know? How the hell would you know you have the best deal? Just cause you think you do, does not mean others did not make their own analysis. Maybe we had other things to consider, and so thus arrived at our decision? With all your self professed smartness, you should have been able to think of that part yourself.

sighs.....

This is no indication that im not having the time of my life in Melbourne. Dont freak out guys.

XOXO

Joey

that feeling when ur so heartbroken that your scolding someone you love so much but so pissed off at him at the same time.

Its heart-wrenching.... and its the only thing that can make me cry

I havent blogged for a really long while
Mainly cause Im not working anymore

Ever since 2 to 3 weeks ago??
But did i mention, I havent gotten my pay?
So i'm totally broke right now


Anyway!!
Chunyan's birthday was on Mondayyyyyy!!!!!!

YAYYYYYYY!!!!!!
But but we are only celebrating it on sat.. yupp

This is what we do on each others birthday
We go to a highly recommended restaurant by friends, forums etc.
We spend a bomb
Sometimes ordering really wrong and gross stuff
Like medicine drink
And then realising coke is the best thing that has ever happened..
Oh, but that incident was just an outing

Anyway! CHUNYAN U NEVER REPLY MY FB MSG!!
im sooooo sadd... :((((


Anyway, she already knows her birthday present... haha...
But nevertheless,

Happy 19th Birthday!!!!!! I will catch up to you soon!!!
a few months later.....


On to other stuff, Im finally gonna meet up with Soo after 1 million years.
Although im coughing and sick, I will risk my health to meet up with the bimbo..
haha....
honoured??

Anyway, I gotta go prepare now cause..
Im gonna be late if i dont..

Bye!!

I did badly for my As.
But I am going to do all I can to amend my mistake

I spent $300+ of my dad's money every month to go to the top school in Singapore
to only screw up that very best opportunity I got to get straight As

So this time, I got to do it on my own

Because Im going to be someone that can think fondly of Alevels
'Look, I screwed up my Alevels. But its the best wakeup call for me. Thats why Im here'

It is time to blog

I blog when

a) Im too bored

b)after I go through a string of blogs

• Sherina
• Chunyan
• Elaine
• Mine -.-
• Sgflea
• jamama
• Samuel
• Nicole

c) work is being a bitch

So im stopping work after today. My last day is actually tomorrow but I took leave for tomorrow last week and was only informed of this two days ago. Yupp. Sad life.

Suddenly Im unemployed. I dressed up to work today. Since its technically my last day.

Anyway. I would be going bac to RJ on Sats from 8.30am to 11.30am to help out with the J1s since Chunyan cant make it. At least I will have dance back in my life!! And I wanna stretch..

You know what Im gonna do?? Im gonna be there at 8am and stretch. Wearing the normal dance attire and pretend im a new student!! Good Idea?? Great idea yea!! haha!!!

I need to finish my work before I go off, lest i leave my undone work to Li Wen. No. Thats mean.

Opinions vary and I accept that

But a judgement based on clueless and groundless assumptions are entirely uncalled for

And I will not hesitate to condemn

How easily do you say these 3 words?

I love you

Gigakukubrain and I have decided where to go for our getaway!!

Tioman for snorkeling and then Malacca or KL for a shopping trip!!

Im so excited! And the trip, which is a package, has no fixed date!! yay! Means we can schedule it to our convenience! :D

Also, I just got an email from groupon and they have this fantastic offer to macau on! Since Macau is close to Hong Kong, it would be a great opportunity for my family to go there. I dont particularly recall going to HK, though my mum said we did. When we were young.

Or maybe that too was my imagination

Anyway! Package consists of return tix on Air Macau, 5 star accommodation for 2 nights and breakfast!
Just emailed my dad about it!
Hope I get a favourable response!!
FINGERS CROSSED!


I have loads of plans for this year and i do want to fulfill them!


Tioman
Malacca
Kuala Lumpur
Universal Studios
Macau
Melbourne
Gold Coast

seriously, why am I not broke yet?

Ive been wanting to do this for awhile
The makeup post that is
but blogger screwed up on me when i completed the post a few days ago
:(:(:(
It was such a long post and a substantial one(to me at least) in a pretty long time


Oh yea, in case your wondering
I have been to universal studios
but I might want to get the annual pass, which is 318 bucks
I think its pretty worth it since there are many rides opening this year, which will attribute to one of my many reasons for visiting USS again and again
Also, I get a max of 5 free tix during my birthday month!
That means I get to bring my family with me!
And the best of all
I intend to purchase that with my own money!
So, i think its worth it!
Oh wait, not free. Its only at 10% off
Oh well
let me think about it again!
Go on friday or saturday guys!
Hollywood after hours!
Its worth it!

Im sad, and a whee bit disappointed.

But I understand:)

On Chunyan's request, Im blogging.

Readership: 1

Anyway, Im gonna have a post about my daily makeup to work
(If I do bother to put it on. I find it more fulfilling to just lie in bed for 10 more minutes)
Im probably going to blog twice today.
We'll see


Life Updates

It was my dad's birthday yesterday
and I didnt disappoint with my weirdness!
In my company, there is a despatch guy, Salleh, who literally runs all over Singapore to deliver documents and such.
So, when I came back after lunch yesterday, I overheard him saying he is going to Senoko, which is where my dad's company is situated i.e he is going to my dad's company.

So I did what you know I would do
I took 3 recycled paper and stapled them together
These 3 recycled paper have been crossed out on one side, but you know, whatever works. On the third piece, I wrote

daddy. Happy Birthday. Love Joey:D

I even sealed that pseudo letter in the company envelope!!
I swear I could already see my dad's expression

Upon getting home, I pressed my dad for his reaction.
Apparently, salleh asked him to open it immediately as he thought he might have to send it back to me.
HAHA! Well, he didnt open it with Salleh in the room
But his secretary and receptionist were in there!
HAHA! And they laughed!!
He said he was wondering what the crossed out letter was about.
HEHE!!


On other news, my sister is returning to Melbourne tonight. Her flight is around 11pm.
That means I will need to miss YEC meeting. Im not sure if I will be eating dinner at the airport but i hope so! I like eating at the airport.
oh, and Im not going Korea with the company anymore, cause the management has DECREED that they feel it wouldnt be appropriate
While it was appropriate for my siser who already quit when they were going for the Hong Kong trip 2 years back.
Anyhoo, I will be going overseas with Elaine anyway!
So i think thats better!
My primary motive for wanting to go Korea was to have a chance to be more familiar with my colleagues, but well, I guess thats gone
Im thinking of going Gold coast!
Ive managed to get a rate of around $1000 for flight tix, accommodation as well as transport, theme park tix and airport transfer!
AM I GOOD OR WHAT???!!!??
Oh and I actually found a SiA tix for 800+ round trip to brisbane.
That is a super good deal.
But with the freak weather over at Aussie, Im not THAT surprised either. Oh well. I hope Elaine can make it though.
Please Soo please???!!!?

Signing off
Joey


P.S Hi chunyan!