im realli realli tired though its only 9.54..
GAWD
finished one maths paper today
and 4 chapters of history
means i have three more chapters to go
and they are all kinda big
okok, which history chapter isn't?
i need to go faster lahhx..
my speed is WAY toooooo slow..
here's wad i've completed

its easier.... haha

1. history TOV, LON, HITLER, STALIN
2. papers papers and more papers of maths
3.lit TKAM(just like a read thru..wad else is there??)
4. chemistry Chapters 1 to 13
5. physics Chapters 1 to 5
6. social studies( now left with revising the notes)

so this means.. i have less than A MONTH to create a miracle!

things i GOTTA finish this week

1. history
2. chemistry
3. lit MND
4. physics Chapters 6 to 12
5. social studies Goverance, Iraq & Kuwait

hmmm... i tink i gotta do more of physics tys..
i guess i just procrastinate too much
thus i am now in this frantic state
haix.... lucky i not retaking chinese
anyway.. im gonna read Midsummers night's dream before sleeping
how coincidental is that!
ciao people..

nothing's been happening...
and i am NOT looking forward to school..
except hearing elaine say that paris is in london and stuff
i swear, she is the most geog-idiot
like england is in london
cox london sounds bigger -.-'''
bt its okay.. she is elaine..
ohya, huiping, boobs and i came up with a new word
all preofessors listen up!!!
its ELAINE!!
u use it this way, " you damn elaine lehhx!!!"
haha.. da girl has submitted to her fate.. damn funni
oh.. and i tried to sae to her face
"wah.elaine... damn pretty..." in that serious voice..not shocked..
and i failed horribly...
i looked at her and started laughing
we cannot look at each other for an expressed purpose and not burst out laughing
ITS IMPOSSIBLE
but i did manage..
after 15 minutes and me and her were crying
from laughing at each other laughing..
yahh.. thats how school is.. cracked up..
anyway.. she was supposed to say it back to me
see who laughs first..
but the game ended before it even started
elaine did not manage to say it back
-.-'''...
just a brief update...
NAFA last friday was kinda disastrous
zls was like lashing at almost everyone.....
grrrr..
felt really bad
like im gonna fail the exam or sumtin...
ohya, bfore that was champions day..
the service award trophies were PLASTIC!!
not fair!!
its throwable...
anyway.. gotta go... sherina colling!!! ciao!!

its the last second day of holidays and i had to wake up at 7!!!
angry!!!!
and tomorrow its gotta be earlier!!
even more angry!!!!
today was just NAFA rehearsal with all performances combined together....
so we went thru the whole thing twice and the finale a couple of times.
but didnt get to practise much
oh.. i forgot that there was no fiddle bus from my house to amk mrt and i was almost late
in the end left house at 8am
when had to report fully changed at 9am
was freaking out a lil
but decided to do what i did that time
take bus to amk mrt
mrt to novena
then taxi to NAFA Campus
ohya, today we had to take da tou zhao for the performance
and we had to pay three bucks for it
if i didnt need to
limin and i wud have had enough money for a fulfilling lunch
VERY VERY ANGRY!!!!
grrrr
omg, my this post is damn scattered
but im just typing whatever comes to my mind.. haha
damn, i'll better get back to studying
no time at all..
i even slept during NAFA with Sophia lying on my butt
no surprise...
CIAO!!!!

hihi!!!! its been a rather fast week.. with no time to study and stuff... yesterday went to concert with xmcd.... the dance i liked best was the mongolian one and the one with da leaf.. oh.. da peacock one was fantastic too... bt i gotta say that their opening dance was.. very disappointing... i expected it to be a notch higher dan the 13 grade one, but it was..........

anyway, its great to be with all my juniors again... although it wasn't exactly the whole dance troupe, but it was great.... I LIKE DA BAO ZHA TOU FA one!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... so sad, last item he at the back... not fair...

anyway, had loads of fun with the usual crowd and though i missed my maths tuition, i wun sae it was not worth it.. ebird was really good!!! GOOD JOB!!

on the way back to school, passed by ruimin's house and me and limin just stared... my dear girl, i miss u!! please blog on your school soon!!!

there's nafa again today.. zls just doesnt want to let us off the hook.... she pushed back the timing for us... sian.. and it now clashes with my maths makeup tuition... ahh!!! nafa ends at 7.30 while my tuition starts at 7.30, which is at yishun.. how the heck can i make there in time without being 45mins late or sumtin... haix... i dunno wad to do.. and my mum cant fetch me cox my parents are at genting.. and i only knew last night.. AHH!!!! im gonna pull all my hair out soon..realli realli soon.. i better start preparing for nafa if not i will be scolded by zls.. gotta go!!!!ciao!!

just read limin's blog.. and i must agree with what she said.... the competition is unhealthy... it is making dance itself a competition.. the dance is supposed to bring out the best in each of you.. not the very competitive spirit.. that kinda competition spirit is to be left for when we are performing on the stage.. a dance troupe is as good as its weakest member.. its not about who is lead or who is chosen for whatever role.. its about how we can work towards a common goal and achieve it... if everyone is overcrowded with their own egoistic thinking.. then what is dance for... if everyone thinks they are number one.. what is the point?? its good to be confident.. its good to show zls what you are capable of.. but while your at it, dun forget that you are still part of XMCD... all of you have to be of a certain calibre to even be in it...

lets just say that if i were to be caught up in my own world and not think about the big picture, then i wud have crushed and burned while wallowing in self-pity.. sometimes its not that you are not good enough, sumtimes its just that ur feeling is not what is wanted... we just needa take a step back and step out of a world that evolves around ourselves...

i learnt this the hard way and i hope you guys can recognise how ur attitude can jeopardise ur chances... what a dance need is your passion, not your competitive spirit.. yes.. zls is stricter than before, she is more bad tempered.. but have your ever thought that while zls didnt scold us for being late, mrs lim was there?? while our seniors didnt get gold with honours, we did?

i realise that it is very prestigious and very glamorous to be the lead, to be in the limelight... who wont be happy to be the lead??? bt please.. dun pit yourselves against each other for the sake of a role... when ur on stage, no one can recognise you, your frens maybe, bt in competitions, the judge judges everyone.. it doesnt matter where you are standing, with one person missing, the dance will never be complete.. you may think ur insignificant, but know that every position has to be accounted for.. imagine if there were only 6 people in a dance as compared to 30 people in a dance with different formations and different stuff to showcase.. which is more impressive?? a dance troupe with beginners who blossom into beautiful and elegant dancers or 6 fantastic dancers who only have those few amazing techniques.. what im putting across is it doesnt matter what you are, whether fat skinny short tall, it all boils down to how much dance means to you and how much you are willing to give.. everyone matters, its just how able you are to express urself in terms of dance moves..a dancer filled with ambitions to only win can never surpass a dancer that dances for the grace and beauty of the sport.

if you guys are ever depressed over what zls commented on you, think of me and u will noe that ur not the only one.. you cant control what she says, but you can control how u think of each comment.. and how you put it to use.. Would you continuously put urself down by complaining about zls' biasedness, or will you prove to yourself that you are more worthy than that, that it doesnt matter what you are? Let me tell you guys something... zls has always said that im fat.... that because im fat i cant be put at any position that comes near to the centre.. so, im most of the time the second choice... or the third... yes, i have lost many many chances to be the lead.. and i hated myself for it. but by doing so, i dun see myself getting any better, i dun see zls putting me in any better role... so i chose to be the one at the back.. if i cant be what i wanted, why not help others in what they want, especially when they have what it takes... i wun sae that im not upset whenever zls doesn't choose me for certain stuff.. no.. IM FREAKING DEPRESSED.. but think about it.. if u see a big blob of object standing in the middle of a dance with many skinny people beside her.. what do u think?? i think that it is a spoiler... and I LAUGH...

no matter how good you are, its always the big picture!!! its never about you, its about the dance... its never about"heyy, im better suited for that particular dance than her, why am i not chosen".. zls is biased, that i can safely assure you.. but zls never fails to see who is better and she knows her stuff better than anyone.. dun be so quick in judging if u are better.. if she knows you can.. then she will take you into consideration... remember that its also not really about how good you are but also the stamina needed for the dance..

to sec 1 dancers.. i've heard most of you are in dance for the cca points.. that is SO SO SO not what dance is all about.. i want you all to know that just being in dance will NEVER guarantee you a safe 2 points off ur Olevels.. it doesn't work that way..if that were it, the school should just give 6 points to every student... life is not about studying, its about enjoying the lil' bits of fun that it presents us with.. like life, dance is never a bed of roses... its full of thorns but its up to you to find the beauty of a rose... only when you find the beauty of dance, the enjoyment and happiness it brings, thats when you can say you are dancing.. the 2 points is a bonus to the fun and friends you get to experience and have during dance...

to nicole, i noe that u noe u are good in dance.. but please please dun let it cloud the way you dance... just dance out of ur love for the sport.. its enough.. dancing trying to combat the competition and dancing with your heart are two different things, two different type of dances.... as i've said, you noe you are good and that is enough... just believe in your own abilities and never never be put down by what zls says.. also, IF zls doesn't choose you, which is highly unlikely not to mention unthinkable, NOTE that the positions are NEVER fixed.. its just up to you to make the most of it....

so i just want you guys to know that no matter what, dance will never be complete with one of you missing, also, dance is also about the attitude not how good u are... you can be Beijing's next top dancer, bt if ur missing dance every other day, what's the point... and if any of you are thinking of backing out of SYF because of the competitive feeling in dance, then you have some brushing up to do with the way you view dance... i want you guys to know that every troupe has its own problems and it is up to us to solve it... ohya, please don't start clapping at every small thing that zls asks someone to do.. i mean when it is obvious it is a good job, yes u clap.. bt not clap even when there is nothing to clap...

i guess that's about it.. not too bad for a has-been blogger ehhx???

teacher's day celenbraton on friday.. im kinda not in da mood to narrate all the events that happened.. so im just gonna post pictures..

class photos!!

the card for ZLS...

the sight that greeted when i entered my room!!

my dad insisted on a foto with me..



oh....if you guys are thinking about the thing im wearing...
it was from Sherina and Gwen..
well.. but that was kind of their fake present
in the morning
they actually gave that big foto frame thingy and a necklace to my dad
and it sure surprised me
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
oh.. that dinosaur cloth is so CUTE!!

Special thanks to 406,
especially ELAINE FRANNY(i dun care,im still gonna coll you franny) and HUIPING!
you guys made me walk backwards out of class..
i expected sumting
but not a birthday cake that looked very much like mango pudding
i ate about 5 cakes for my birthday
but i liked it!!
and also to my beloved ruimin and limim and ebird for last friday's bdae celebration b4 NAFA
thanks ebird for making that special trip down
just to celebrate with me
and also to Mingting, Zien, Audrey and Alanna for celebrating my bdae on thursday...
and and sorry for cancelling out on you guys which i didnt noe we were gonna be celebrating my bdae..
so sorry!!
and thanks to everyone who wished me a happy bdae!!!
YOUR LOVED!!!

hi people...
Ruimin left ytd....
This is the first day without ruimin,
and i felt it at NAFA today..
its kinda wierd but..
i guess i jst couldn't stop thinking about ruimin
i coulnt stop talking about her either..
im happy i can blog today..
that was friggin random
at T3, it was kinda mixed feeling
i felt like..... shit
i really wanted to give ruimin a hug,
bt she was already gonna cry
i refrained, cox i could feel mine coming on too
i cant believe i didnt get to hug her!!
OMG!!! im so toot!!
REGRETS!!should have just hugged her
my dear girl, the 333 ice-cream sticks are for luck..
the other days.. ur supposed to come back
well. these 333 sticks are totally different phrases of
your character
some of my random feelings
words of encouragement
and well.. miscellaneous
i miss you so much!!!
im starting to feel the emptiness
starting to feel your absence
3 months is gonna be long
but.. let this test of friendship be taken to our advantage
we'll survive it..
Her last day at NAFA...


Us at T3 with her


Our last view of her inside...


A new Journey

hi people!! its not a blue moon yet i know..
but something happened last night that prompted me to blogging today..
my bro's toilet frosted glass door cracked..
i had no idea wad led to it but it just did...
shit lohhx...
i have no idea how my bro was able to sleep, or even sleep in da room...
well. he said he couldn't sleep cox he cud hear da friggin door cracking thru the night..
but still.. the door was like only one and a half metres away from him..
how can he not go sleep sumwhere else??
oh.. and da cracked glass looks disgusting and i am still hving the urge to scratch everything out..
but i cant cox firstly i will get blood everywhere,
secondly, the whole room will be covered in shiny stuff
and thirdly, i might die..
from the glass that will pierce thru my skin..
but seriously, u guys will find it gross too!!
lemme show u guys how the door is supposed to look like..



so yahh.. this is my door..and this is how smooth it should be







but no.. this is how his cracked door looks like
freaky




oh, here's a close up look.. yahhx.. i doesn't look so bad..
i didnt have the urge to scratch it out at this point
its the bottom of the door that made me wanna do it

seriously, i think its gross... eww..

but it was taken away this morning by some men.
a total of 5 of them came
i still dunno how they did it
according to my mum, they unscrewed it
ohya, there were much more cracks this morning
which made me wanna scratxch them out more
what a thing to feel before lit exam

ohya, about it, do till damn shiok lahhx
oh, and i did prose instead of the poem that Mr Cheng wanted us to do
i think i wud have died if i tried..
i took too long a time to complete Tkam..
i did passage-based you see and there were 2 parts
i took like an hour plus to complete it
i oni had like 25 mins or sumtin to analyse da prose and answer both questions.
thank goodness the prose was easy..
able to analyse the first time..
but i still couldn't complete both questions
so basically.. i think i can pass but otherwise..
im screwed
ahh!!
this sucks..
i couldn't complete two papers oreadii..
worse, both have practically a question blank
oh god
please dun let this happen in olevels
then i will really be screwed
anyway.. im gonna study for emaths tmr
gosh, me studying emaths..
please let this be easy
signing off!!

today should be declared miracle day.. im blogging.
i didnt blog bout Xinthesis cox basically, i kept procrastinating and ji was barred from the laptop
amazingly, my mum didnt scold me for using the laptop today
Oh ya, so i shall now comment about Xinthesis

my beloved babes, Sherina, Gwen, Cesca and Elaine waited damn long for me
im so sorry!! but if i eat so long, i definitely will change so long right??
RIGHT..
i know, i make perfect sense
on the night of Xinthesis, before mei2 hua1 wu3, everyone was like hugging each other, giving each other encouragements and stuff..
it was really heart-warming
i mean, it is our last performance together as a troupe..
its amazing ow much we've grown from those silly lil' girls
we have understood each other more, we get into fights, but i wun say it worsened our team spirit
that night passed in quite a blur
i still remember myself just when the music started to just immerse myself in the music and whatever happens will be perfect..
well, but the only time i worried was cox limin said she will lose her sense of direction when she is turning
now why am i not surprised??
this reminds me of the popcorn incident...
anyway, after the mei2 hua1 wu3, we all rushed like some shit to change..
thank goodness my juniors helped me to take my tou2 shi3 out, if not i confirm late
maybe teachers specifically asked them to help me
or i just looked like the slowpoke kind
everything worked out smoothly, besides the fact that nicole dear,
took off with my shoes which was in that big bag
and assumed i was gonna take the bus
i felt stupid finding my frens in dance shoes and going home IN DANCE SHOES
oh, and i was told the shoes were in th office the next day
you know how silly-looking it is to look for a shoe that is like about to fall out in 5 pieces??
so the shoes still miraculously managed to find me
through a certain medium called limin

im gonna change the topic abruptly
i just thought of a more pressing issue
the prelims..
i cant believe that i screwed up in amaths, a subject i tot i was ok
and i couldn't finish history cox i wasted 20mins trying to figure source A out
toot much?? .....toot alot
bt i didnt curse..
i went im screwed
well, elaine is screwed too
i hope p1 will be easier. pls pls pls!!
i even went to si1 ma3 lu4 guan1 yin1 miao4!!
tomorrow is TKAM
its lit.. thank goodness its p1 and it strts at 11!! yippee!!
i tink im just gonna read thru da book and fish out the im portant quotes
i guess im spending too much time bloging...
so i gotta go...
and i realized how fotoless my blog looks
i did post fotos once!!!
ciao people.. signing off

so dance intensive has finally ended!! like finally..
oh wait.. dere's still tue wed and thurs...
damn... all for Xinthesis!!
Muscle aches are like so usual now that the dancers dun really complain at all
yah.. that's the extent...
tue its dance from 4pm to 7pm.
i guess thats ok since its only three hours as compared to previous
which is like 8am to an average of 2pm.
i tot it will never end or something
i am serious we never stop dancing
except for a once in a while 15 mins break
which does not come evry day
and we have to continue from the mei2 hua1 dance to sui4 yue4 ru2 ge1
its real tiring but i guess its really worth it
during dance, manny manny tings were like taking place
zls lost her temper much more and insults came more freely
i guess she is just afraid that we will not perform up to standard on the day of Xinthesis
but i wont say her worries are unfounded
we really did suck before the dance intensive
but now i can say we are all ready for whatever!!
we hve been complimented very neat!!
haha!!
that's what intensive did to us
amazing isnt it??
ohya, on Fri it was practice first then full dress rehearsal for dance only
so those doing mei2 hua1 had to rush like shit to change into the sui4 yue4 ru2 ge1 costume
it was like a mad rush and we were screaming away!
haha.. so the committee decided to change the dance program
so we are now performing the first and last item..
dun need to rush so much
thank goodness, i tot we were all not going to make it on time

on to hol hmwk, im screwed!! left like almost all untouched
shits..

the past few days have been rather.. interesting.. on thurs.. i went to Genting till Sat.. haha.. you know, our purpose of going dere was to go to Awana to play golf.. so we had to wake up at a freaking inhumane time like 6.30. Of course i didnt wake up at that time.. muahaha!! my whole family was trying to wake me up., i was like even saying go without me.. I had a wonderful dream ok?? i wanna continue that dream.. well so.. my dad pulled me off my bed and into the toilet where he briefly realises that i dont have my toiletries with me or my clothes to bathe and change into.. so i practically dragged myself to my luggage.. took my toothbrush and as i was about to go into the toilet again.. i heard this " HUH! today there's competition?" you know what that means?? It means the golf course will not be open and i can go back to sleep, go bck into my dream.. so i like jumped onto my bed and seriously, i feel asleep. so my dad had to drag me outta bed again cox he wanna go eat.. That King turtle.. so we just decided to head to the outdoor theme park at around noon.. or was it 1pm? so we sat at the usual rides. the dragon for starters, then the cyclone... then.. we went to sit CORKSCREW!! yay!!! i was damn excited lahhx.. but it wasnt as thrilling as the first time i sat it.. however, my sis and i got our brother to join us!! haha.. and he had to sit right at the back for starters because i wanna sit right at the back.. so.. in the end, i had to sit alone.. my brother wanted someone to sit with him.. retribution i guess...

anyway, it was still fun in a sense.. but not fun enough.. den i tried to persuade my sister to accompany me to sit the ride that is the highest and it plunges down like really fast.. yeah, that one.. she didn't dare.. so it took quite long, in th end i just went with my aunt.. i thought the time it took to go up was never-ending.. seriously.. i just kept looking up and it just kept going.. the view from the top didnt help anyting.. it just told me that i was high up on a mountain... it was damn fun!!! the first plunge was scary but halfway through it was really fun!! my bro was like looking at me damn anxiously lahhx.. i was like shouting its damn fun to him.. haha.. well.. i highly doubt he believed me then.. so i sat again, this time with my aunt and her son. yepps.. my sis and bro were still too chicken to try it... but my bro said if my cousin said it was fun, he will go.. so we shot up again and came down.. haha.. then the third time came, and my bro and my sis and me were on the ride together. man was it un.. haha.. my bro was like really scared and stuff... my sis was.. scared i guess.. haha... i totally made things worse by telling them that when you go down, your whole body lifts up and your butt is not touching the seat at all.. that certainly freaked them out.. my bro was even asking things like what if i get heart problems after this.. LAME!!! omg.. im so evil... but nonetheless.. we three enjoyed the ride but they thought once was enough.. haha... oh. but they loved it!!! we were like all going WOOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!! HAHA..

so sunday was like a travel cooldown thing... haha. i know.. lame.. on mon went for June camp.. haha.. Sherina came at around 7.. man does she bathe fast.. anyway.. my decision to stay overnight was damn last minute lahhx... my mum wass freaking pissed but hey.. i still manage to get her permission.. but by the time i went ack.. the buffet was out of food!! boohoohoo!! but thats ok.. haha.. cox i really wasn't hungry!!! ok.. maybe i am lying a lil... but heck.. then came the performance by the juniors.. haha..i tell you. it was entertaining!!! then it was sing-along... at first it was quite no feel.. then the tears started coming when i sat next to Sherina.. and Hongyou was like playing the song 'If we hold on together' ... dammit.. its like totally the SLB crying song or something... Even Jasper came over and was like its like that one.. Just cry lahhx... Nicole was like crying for damn ling.. and this morening at dance, her eyes were freaking swollen!!! and she was complaining about one swollen eye being smaller than the other.. that girl!! oh did i mention?? i went for dance practice on mon and did it last long?? from 8am to 3pm.. it was a heck of a training.. to tink it is going to be like this for the whole week.. so yes guys.. today was no different except that i was like 40mins late as i went to Sherina's house to bathe in the morning... and i lost my shoe.. its gone seriously.. I dunno how.. it just is.. so i had to borrow flip-flops from Sherina... practically everything i wore was from Sherina.. I emphasise practically.. it does not mean totally... but it was fine i guess.. except for the fact that i had a huge blister on my feet due to friction from the dance and i was constantly kneeling down.. rawks right?? i was kneeling right on my blister.. its on my jiao3 bei4. so after dance, went to eat with Ruimin and E-bird then met Yu Chuan dere...

den i went back to see opera.. haha.. it was kinda fun.. but well... oh oh!! Prof Chua actually laughed together with the opera members today.. maybe cox it was really funny.. imagine acting and you have to stare into the eyes of Prof Chua and you have to break a good news that some guy is dead.. haha.. so it required the girl to look around the people and catch eye contact. So Prof Chua was showing the others how they should do it and they caught eye contact in the same position just facing each other.. i tell you. they stayed dere for damn long till even Prof Chua started laughing.. haha... the atmosphere was really cheerful.. haha.. so after that just hanged out awhile in SLR then came home for dinner!!!

so thats bout it.. till tmr's grueling dance session.. ciao!!

hey people of the world!!! haha.. yeah i noe... my life is so full of boredom dat i have no idea wad to blog.. except im now at selection camp.. haha.. last night was pretty fun... there was this courage walk.. and i climbed on top of lockers and crawled on the floor and everything.. haha.. iit was uber fun.. although not manni were frightened cox i tend to let ppl see me before i scare them... haha... oh.. and i took a rather long time to get on top of the locker and an even longer time to get down... i didnt realize it was dat high.. haha.. Shao Jie had to practically like carry me down or something.. lolx.. haha.. oh did i mention?? i was so scared about what i was going to do, i practically dragged Shao Jie along with me.. haha.. oh. .and he was scared too.. just dat he didnt show it.. lolx... Band is playing in the other room.. dots.. so early they here le... oh.. anyway.. im using Isaiah's laptop... haha.. wanted to say that from the beginning but the words just came about... im gonna go for tuition at 11 later.. its 9 oreadii.. so fast.. oh.. and dere will be firedrill tonight.. i feeling like coming back for it.. but.. well.. i not sure if Sherina will still stay.. i hope she will!!!! oH.. AND RECENT STUFF..
My hols are the best first 2 weeks is NAFA every single day for 6 days and lessons for school.... the only free time is the third week of hols.. the fourth week is dance intensive from 9am to 2pm from mon to sat.. i tink i will have terrible muscle aches.. haha..
Chinese Os were toot.. i totally didn't anticipate that question lahhx.. well.. manni people didnt.. so screw it.. haha..
i seriously gotta ake up my mind about coming back tonight or not.. i tink i will give it a few more mins.. ciao people.. till then!!

yayness!! finally one which can work properly.. the first one was friggin screwed up.. the moment i type in my profile, the whole thing goes blank.. wasted damn alot of time on that.. so i finally decided to use another skin.. which had an alignment problem.. i couldn't care much and went thru the SOTDs.. its da easiest place to find fantastic skins... i chose this cox it kinda fits my mood.. haha... well.. couldnt go to PKS today... sigh... i feel so.. oh nvm... SORRY SAM SORRY LIN!!! well... i haven't linked sam!!! ahh!! pmg.. im such a pro... anyway.. i dun have anything to blog.. unless u want me to tell you about my dreams?? haha.. i guess not.. well. ciao!!

heyy people.... HOMECOMING RAWKED!!!
haha.. firstly.. huiping, anqi, christabelle, Josie, Kaihong, Peiling and me totally went crazy....
we played at the jousting area which totally wasn't jousting..
it was just a series of pulling out each other's socks..
they all gang up against me lahhx.. wah liao...
NG PEILING!!!! U WENT TO HANDICAP ME!! huh!!!
so after that..
we all practically used up all our energy..
but we had fun.. it was really worth it... haha...
didnt get to hang out much with my dance mates....
but going crazy with m galfrens sure wasn't a bad idea...
after homecoming.. i went to have dinner at 5pm!!!
haha.. i was super duper full after dat..
ohya.. i went with Sherina, Gwen and company...
haha.. it was totally hilarious..
i tried to shoot ice at sherina thru the straw...
and Aik Long tried to shield her from the ice..
haha.. but he moved after thinking that i wun shoot after all
but what do you know"?? I DID!! HA!!
omg... im a total psycho!!
well.. so i came home, and watched TV!!!
fine.. im overly- enthusiastic...
it was that time when my hand muscles ached alot...
i went to get the ice pack which i heated up and it became microwaved pack
it helped a lil, but not much
do you people wanna know how i got these awfully horrible muscle aches??
I had NAPFA 5 items ytd
and for the pull up, the A grade was 17..
but i tot it was 16.. so i did 16
and i was so bu gan yuan that i retried...
so in all i did like 33 pull-ups
and thus my muscle aches.. but i got an A for my shuttle run!!!
that certainly lifted my spirits!! haha!!


the more i think, the more i know im just not cut out for it.. yet i know that such things dont come without purpose.. but i guess i just killed all my chances... im sorry i cant hellp it.. i have done it for about 2 years.. i cant just stop.. i know i shouldn't bt i feel i should have gotten it.. why shouldn't i have?? im so fucked up by this issue, suppressing it down for so long... i tot as long as i put in my best, i will be able to achieve wat my goals were.. but guess wad?? i didn't.. in fact, i feel im getting more and more bad by the minute. i feel that what i had is drifting away.. fast.. i feel all so alone in dance.. nobody to turn to, nobody to talk to.. bt yet i tried to fit in.. i really tried.. i dont noe how long i can last.. maybe last through.. or perhaps i'll breakdown and just give up.. cox i dunno how long i can kp this image up.. the image of the gal who has a heck-care attitude to any negative comments given.. i laugh when im criticised, but i feel as if my whole world comes crashing down again and again.. i feel so unrecognised.. such a loser... i gave it my all.. but yet i feel as if the views towards me are no different.. im lazy.. too lazy to care... tell you wad.. i care.. i care so much that im tearing into pieces everytime i dance.. to feel like a nobody, with nobody.. i feel so ps-ed.. i feel as if u dont care anymore.. like how you always go with others when all i wanted was your endless chattering or just your company... i dun even think u noe im thinking like this.. i dun even think anyone noes how i really feel.. i dont even think u noe im talking about you.. i dont even think anyone noticed.. everytime my name is colled.. i leap for joy.. like how my world is suddenly vright again... but then.. u tear it right open again... Dance makes me alive, yet... it makes me ache so much... dun worry... i wun break down.. i wun be an emo-kid.. i will still be like myself.. cox after all... i can cover up any of my emotions... up till now,, no one has been able to see thru me. how i really feel.. the mask over the tears... when it is put on.. or when i am really laughing... somestimes.. i feel as if no one cares, cming to me oni for happy jokes... such a loser.. no one to cry to. i am always the strong one... but who is there to be my strong one?? Please dont talk about it

Heyy guys!!! Xinthesis is on the 26th June, thursday... The theatre is fantastic, and not only dance is performing, wushu opera and i tink Chinese Drama is too.... But the Dances we are going to perform are fantastic... Its worth the while people!!!! there are stall seats and circle seats.. the stall seats are the better seats.. the stall seats are 15 bucks while the circle seats are 12 bucks. But its not free seating.. if ur want the stall seats, u need to order from any upper sec dance member who were in the syf group. its on a first come first serve basis so please order fast... Dance only has a limited number of tickets... Its now or never!!! There are more stall seats than circle seats so grab your chance, but trust me, the stall seats are much better... Xinthesis will be at Republic polytechnic. its not as far as u people think.. its in Woodlands, frm AMK mrt a 15 to 20 min ride... it is jst there.. so its not that far.. its nearer than Victoria to me. Xinthesis is a must go event!!! Get your tickets now!!!


well.. today has been a rather normal day... except that there was speech day rehearsal.. and i tell you.... we totally wasted our time seating there... They should have organised it better. They reported at 3.30 and only danced ONCE at 5.30. is that good planning or what?? but good job girls!!! your bested yourselves.. but rmb.. u need to smile to bring ur audience to smile back at you.. REMEMBER Give the Dance your best and the Dance will bring out the best in you!! Ur are just that lil' bit more less.. Just smile... smile feeling the song running through every movement... the spotlight is on YOU!!!
i guess thats all for now.. ciao people!!

heyy world.. yahh.. i get it.. im a total loser blogger.. ok... well.. im jst here because i wanna talk about spammers.. i think.. THEY SUCK... hide behind their screens and dun show their big fucking names.. so who are you to comment on people ,you idotic little lowlife loser?? So what if people'd flexibility is good?? So what if your so not teacher's favourite?? isn't that because YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH?? if u did not put in any shit effort, den who are you to comment on others?? WTF IS UR FRIGGIN PROBLEM? nobody went too provoke you so why are u going around being such a bitch??? i am so friggin pissed with all these spammers... so what if she is stick thin? does that mean she cant dance?? well, if u think so, den almost half of dance cant dance.. and she is like somewhat the lead.. so doesnt that mean something??? that she can dance, and if u cant, jst scoot off.. go into depression or something and go into withdrawal mode.. i cant really care about what happens to you... fine.. verything shall just end here.. i am just pissed people, and thus venting out my anger.. i dun like it when one of my best frien's blog gets spammed... at least i dun hide my name.. if u want reference, please help urself to the right hand corner of my blog.. its right there.
ok... this thing is exhausting. well.. that's that... haha.. this reminds me of the tim when e-bird's blog got spammed... haha.. yeah.. that person who spammed back was me... fine... bt that's bygones.. i dun really care bout that now.. cox anw, my clique in dance rawks!!! I LOVE ALL OF THEM!! i think im very random.. ok... sherina.. dun tell me now then i now... i knew it.. HA!!! ok.. im cracked up... . i tink im going crazy... first time i blog on such impulse.. as in.. aiyo.. nvm...
well.. anw.. life has been.. like life. oh.. 2dae's Dicky's bdae.. HAPPI BDAE!!! sorri didnt get u anythiing.. but look on the bright side.. i returned u da book i owed you from last year.. lolx... ok..that was so overdue.. haha... anw.. my laptop keeps disconnecting.. dammit... i think i might go mad.. ok.. i think i gotta w8 till it connects again.. oh.. it is.. well.. i have only one thing to announce now...

SUPPORT XINTHESES PEOPLE!!! OUR DANCES ARE DA BEST!!! ITS A ONCE IN A LIFETIME OPPORTUNITY!!! DUN MISS IT!!!

there.. so now my business is done.. thats that i guess, for now.. till the next blue moon arrives..ciao!!!

heyy.. lemme give ya all an update on the last 2 days..


Thursday 14 Feb...
Valentines day!!!

well... first thing is thanks to my so manyy frens and dance juniors for giving me the prezzies!!! haha.. it was really so sweet... and i forget to bring my gifts for my frens.. it was like horrible.. ppl kept giving me but i cant give them.. well.. anyway... huiping gave me another tigger.. haha.. i asked for it cox she asked me wad i want.. oh.. and she gave me a daisy too... haha.. i love daisies... anyway.. After recess i had to go off for Dance rehearsal at NIE for the performance the next day.. but before i went, my mum came with my frens prezzies!! haha.. but i had to go off like in 10 seconds.. i ran to my class like some crazy lunatic and ran back.. oh....and i forgot what i wanted to type... ohya.. Peiying, Limin and i went to make sure the girls get their tai wei right but when we got there, we had the shock of our lives.. the stage was so small that i can only probably fit 1/4 of our whole dance.. damn small.. well.. but it was ok lahhx.. Mrs Ng got them to move back the chairs and was able to let us use the floor dat was much bigger and smoother so as to let them be able to do their split and turn easily.. yay!!! but the worst thing is we three had to change their positions which was like a nightmare.. the first and second part we only had about 7-10 ppl dancing... but we finally decided to cramp everyone in in the third part... it was super squeezy but at least everyone could dance..... i was damn tired.. on the way back, i slept on the bus the whole way... i was that exhausted... limin and peiying also slept.. we were drained of all our energy...... but the whole thing still turned out well.. the dancers could adapt to changes really fast.. CONGRATS!! and they were so united... those who were in the first and second part was even willing to give up their part in the third phase for those who were not able to be in the first or second part.. it was really sweet of them.... so .. GREAT JOB!!!<br>

Friday 15 Feb...
the performance day

well... when we reached there, we went to the waiting room and ...well... waited...for our turn to perform that is... it came rather quickly...limin and i and peiying were all damn nervouse.. and i really agree with what limin said... i am even more nervous than when i am the one performing... i was at the back and almost went bonkers with anxiety... it was really scary.. so afraid they may forget their positions.. but they didnt!!! yay!!!! they did really well and the audience said they were good!!!! yay!!!!! oh.. and after that we had a buffet lunch.. limin ruimin and i went siao.. ohya,... ruimin cam eto help with the makeup, tying of hair etc... i tink im gonna have a phobia of tyiong hair cox when i was inthe bus, i wanted to relax abit, closed my eyes and saw myself tying ppl's hair.. omg... i was like omg to RM.. haha... as usual, she was being a horse on the bus... as in literally a horse... haha... i hope she sees this.. lolx... wel.. so that was it.. i came back to skool and went to class for awhile.. talked to huiping and vera for a lil bit before i made my way back to dance room... everything was almost done.. danced abit and made our way to amk hub.. bought rm's scrunchie, we spent damn alot of time there and took 166 to NAFA.. the bus jorney took so long, that we had to forgo our meal of pepper lunch and jst eat chicken rice because dance starts at 6.45 and it was oreadii 6..... we ate in 10mins!! 10 FRIGGIN MINUTES!! wow.. nina, dun ask me how i did it.. i just did.. and it is not a miracle.. well... so we were a lil late for NAFA... and sophia came too.. zls asked her to join our group for the performance of sui yue ru ge...


yepp, so that about explains my last 2 days.. noithing much bout today... just went to tuition and came back.. yahh.. and typing my post.. 2day is really a boring day.. so bye peeps.. ciao!!

heyy peeps out there!!! well, the first 3 days of CNY has come to an end... well.. here's how my CNY went... on the first day, i woke up at arnd 10, took a whole 2 hrs to get ready, which includes helping my sister with her make-up.. its her first time.. amazing?? dont be... so.. after those gruelling 2 hrs, i finally went to my paternal grandma's house. lemme think, there was about 2 families there by the time i reached. so, we didn't gamble, another miracle, left and went to my maternal grandma's house at arnd 5pm. we had dinner and stayed till about 12am, 1am. so, i was already so tired by that time that i slept, for 2 hrs.. haha... when we finally left, i saw my dad dozing off at the last stretch. i was like.. c'mon daddy, jiayou... haha.. it was so wierd.

so. the second day i woke up at 11. was supposed to go over to my uncle's house but i was so late, my relatives already came to my house to see and bai nian. so i was like oh. den aft dey xin nian kuai le finish, we all went over to my uncl's house to have lunch.. he's lives jst opp me.. haha..so convenient. aftr that went to my second uncle house to bai nian.. my dad said we shall not spend too much time, jst take angbao and go.. well apparently, we didn't, bcox my dad wanted to gamble. haha... he won a few hundred.. gave my 20.. haha.. yay!!! so we then went to my great grand aunt house to bainian.. my bro gambled but i didn't.. my sis was such a spoilsport this yr.. she didn't wanna gamble, like practically, everytime.. we stayed there for about an hour and left. we went home because my maternal grandma is coming over for dinner.. so, we had dinner, watched shaolin soccer, haha, it was damn funny... lolx.... well.. then my sis and i wanted to go over to my paternal grandma's house, so we walked over.. there we played this really weird game which i have no idea wads its called.. then many people left till there were only 4 of us left.. so we jst gambled a little and the game that woke everyone up? it is a variation of taidi called asshole.. haha.. its dis game where the first 2 people to win will be the king and queen respectively and the last two the prostitute and the asshole respectively.. so the asshole has to give to of his best cards to the king in exchange for 2 of the kings smallest cards, the prostiture will do the same except that only one card is exchanged. then the game will continue as per normal. but, if the asshole puts down a card and everyone passes, there will be a revolution and 3 diamonds will be the biggest while 2 spades is smallest. there can be up till 6 people to play this game where those who are not the king,queen,prostitute or asshole will be commoners. so thats bout it.. cool?? so we took our aunts car home, it was damn friggin late, and slept..

yesterday was rather interesting. was supposed to go out with gwen and shrna but i realized i had to visit more houses because i woke up too late ytd to finish all.. so went to my third aunt and my fift aunt's house, then went home to prepare for the dinner whereby an estimated number of 100 guests were coming.. so.. shrna and gwen came at arnd 8+.. went out to fetch them and saw gwen freaking shrna out... and gwen then told us about walking in odd nubers at night wil have the middle person possessed.. well.. gwen was walking in the middle..lolx.. so we jst played cards, sat arnd, chatted.. played with satay sauce, actually that was only me, and then went to sleep.. it was arnd 12.. we slept rather late though.. so gwen and shrna has left for library and here i am blogging.. and howtoday will turn out.. well.. i expect myself to cancel my sci tuition at arnd 12 , meet up with limin and ruimin and i have no idea what their plan is except going to nicole's house to bai nian then mine to do the valentine's day gifts.. for who?? well.... then i will have dinner at i have no idea where again.. so all in all..

TNG LI MIN DIDNT SMS ME LAST NIGHT TO INFORM ME WHAT OUR PLAN WAS EVEN THOUOGH SHE PROMISED.. HUMPH!!!

so thats bout it.. tata ppl... i love CNY..

oh.. i just saw limin's blog.. hee.. i got this.. i did da quiz.. its actually, very surprisingly, kinda true..

What Joey Lee Xue Mei Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

heylo once again.. well. jst had dance... went home with Li min, and peiying and we were so nice to send Nicole all the way to her bus stop wich is at Bowen .. da other side of Bowen that is... very nice right?? haha. and we walked all the way back to the bustop that we usually take bus from.. haha...so.. al in all... we walked for close to half hour perhaps??? lolx.. so fun.. and i want to scold someone.

LI RUI MIN DID NOT COME FOR DANCE ALTHOUGH SHE SAID SHE WOULD!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!! THAT WOMAN!!

well... ok.. im done.. me and limin are so gonna kill her on fri.. i tell u li ruimin, you die!!!! Muahaha!!! nothing much to say except....
ohya!! there was opera on monday and i oni knew there was on tue!! humph!! no one told me.. wah liao.. i wanted to go for opera lohhx.. haix.. im goin nxt monday.. muahaha... oh.. and Francine is in opera.. lolx... she said it was boring on the first lesson but yahh.. it usually is.. wait till u meet the real him.. haha. .den u noe.. ohya.. Opera is supposedly going to go Italy this year... haha.. mann... i wan!! but im sec 4... hmm...
i guess thats it.. i gta go peeps.. ciao!!!